Dreamy daryn...

AAARTRRGGGH..

2007-07-26T14:46:00.000-07:00

arrgghh.. juz realise dat 3 of my most recent post is not up..!! y?? haiyo.. stupid lappie.. sigh.. oh well.. 4 get it.. it was full of curses and swearing.. lol..

well2.. i passed my skills.. haha.. so happi.. well felt guilty dat i din practise much as i shud hav.. but well.. i passed in any case ya.. haha.. hmm.. theory was oukay.. not bad la.. can ans.. even tho i studied like 1 hour b4 da test.. haha.. dats darina... always da last min person.. well.. last min 4 test n exam only la.. haha.. wat can i say.. i work well under pressure.. haven break yet.. haha.. =P

God.. school comp is so slow.. half way thru my module evaluation.. haha.. finally im done with it.. haha.. my english so "chim-ology" la, 4 da evaluation.. lol.. so esctatic.. how long has it been since i use "high valued words' in my conversation?? miss having ppl pondering about wat im talking during lessons and reading my compo.. haha.. =0

niwae.. consensus in class like been low da past weeks.. ppl hav been falling sick.. now its sq turn.. poor mummy.. get well oukay.. miss u.. praying hard 4 ur speedy recovery.. =)

Hmmm.. my presentations only left with geron.. all finished.. today had da socio presentation.. Ms wee is like so damn gd mood lor.. haha.. hope it reflects gd on our evaluation sheet.. haha.. well.. so i can study less 4 exam.. haha.. not dat i lazy la.. but im wrkin oso.. damn tired.. sob2..

Tanks 4 da few special individuals who made me realise dat im a unique, special homo sapien and dat no one in dis world is like me.. no1 juggles jobs, sch, boyfren, frens prob, sis prob, family prob like i do.. =) i feel very honoured dat at least in dis small world there r ppl who appreciate n respect u 4 who u r.. dey dun criticise wat u do, ur opinions etc.. there's always a reason 4 all dats happened, they say.. dey stand by u and proudly announced dat ppl may say, if anything happens 2 u, ill be by urside but 4 dem so long as dey r wif me, nothing shall happen 2 me.. =) i feel totally appreciated n 4 those out there who juz feel dat im some idiot who only do stupid stuff., i dun care already.. =) im in my own life rite now.. and soon, im free frm judgemental ppl.. =)

those who feel sad.. i hope my post has somehow enlightened u guys 2 believe in urself and luv urself 4 who u are.. LOVE URSELF MORE THAN U LOVE OTHERS.. den u can love others da way u wan others 2 love u.. =) tat's all folks.. =) * looney tunes song* lol..

monday blues

2007-07-16T14:48:00.000-07:00

Currently sitting at home having my blissful rest.. Well not exactly da bliss dat I want, considering dere’s a ferocious monster breathing under my neck.. (A.k.a my mum) so naggy la.. Very irritated liao.. want 2 go out and get some fresh air 2 breath, instead of sharing wif da monster at home.. but wait until da pain subsides.. been having dis excruciating abdominal cramps.. not even tyme of da month la.. mine is over like 1 week ago.. been constipated 4 2 days le.. yes constipated!! 2 days!! But da pain as if u neva bomb 4 1000 days!! My god.. cant even wake up la.. hope Ms Joan n my classmates understand ya.. very sorri 4 not cuming 2 sch 2day.. haiz.. muz drink more fluids and eat more fibre.. More RED BULL pls!!

Hmmm… yesterday went hope quite late.. closing a lot lor.. was like got 6 full brown trays.. plus 2 and a half basin of utensils.. still got da pasta dish.. damn. Alone wash sum more.. haiz.. still got 2 do other closing duties.. tanks 2 da ppl whom I work with who are very relaxed I must say.. zee went home first, den maisarah.. filz finished at 9, but she sit there neva help.. haiz.. sum ppl can be so freaking oblivious 2 their surrounding sumtimes.. so wat if ur supervisor sia.. hmmm. But tanks 4 da hitch ya.. appreciate it after a long day standing.. im juz complaining bcoz im so exhausted.. 2 STRAIGHT days of WASHING!! Ya.. my hands becum so wrinkled n coarse.. now where is da lotion…

Greenridge pizza hut has really.. erm evolved?? In a degrading manner?? Well.. sumting like dat la.. I used 2 like wrking dere.. very fun working environment.. da ppl ur wrking wif is always appreciative, supportive, thoughtful.. not dat da staff now r not.. but less ppl now.. well.. ppl change.. me 2. I guess.. I’ve learn 2 adapt 2 dis totally diverse way of management.. but I juz cant take it already la.. dey not appreciative of wat u do.. dey dun understand if a staff has sumting on at da very last minute.. dey dun understand dat sickness actually cus very sudden and not sumting dat is plan.. its not sumting dats gradual and u knw when is da peak n dat u can inform way earlier so dat u can actually find replacement.. speaking of which.. dey cant comprehend dat dere is really no one 2 cover 4 u in da event u r sick or cant make it bcoz every1 else has a plan.. 2 dem, dere will always hav 2 b sum1 2 replace u.. by hook or by crook.. haiz..

A few ppl already verbalise dat dey wan 2 quit. Others mention dat dey wan 2 go KFC or mac 2 work.. da riders dat is.. higher pay, den no closing duties and more no of dockets.. hmm.. wat is going 2 bcum of GRPH..?? n national day is so near.. who is goin 2 work like dat.. I knw a few dun want 2 work n dat day.. haha.. which includes me.. I want watch fireworks!! Lol.. so wat if got double pay but u slog at work like a mad person?? I rather enjoy.. its not as if watch fireworks muz pay rite?? Lol.. hehe.. den I want 2 order pizza n complain about every minor detail!! Pizza burnt la, lasagne half cook, garlic bread squashed, drumlets overdone, order late.. haha.. make sure on dat day I get a complimentary meal.. hehe.. or better still I neva work, yet I eat at da restaurant itself.. haha.. it will be fun 2 c da reaction of da ppl wrking!! Haha.. anyone want 2 jon me, my dear GRPH colleagues?? =) *winks*

Looking back, I dun knw why I’ve been acting strangely dis days, like da past 2 weeks.. im pretending 2 be happy & smiling 2 others when im evidently not alright.. ppl asked if im oukay and wats wrong, all I can afford 2 reply is a weak smile and an insignificant “ya”.. im really sorri but im juz not prepared 2 tell ppl my side of da story yet.. I rather ppl look at me and regard me as da happy-go-lucky type as sum of my colleagues put it.. cool as a cucumber.. nothing can shake me off dat sort of person.. well, I want 2.. but sumtimes its kinda 2 much n da fact dat da verge of breaking is really drawn 2 a close.. haiz.. still hanging on.. still… ALIVE.. sigh..

Long tyme no blog.. lol..

2007-06-30T19:50:00.000-07:00

Hi there.. lol.. sound so formal rite.. haha... hmmm... so long neva blog liao.. haha.. alot ppl pestering me 2 update.. yup2.. so im updating.. hehe.. yupsie!! =)

Hmmm, 1st of all.. i would like 2 tank all the ppl who hav given me their full support and encouragement thru dis trying times i had.. who stood by me through dis complexed times.. i really appreciate it u guys.. u guys knw who u guys are.. hehe.. i dun nid 2 mention rite.. =) *winks..

IN any case, im really exultant that im with Rasfan back.. damn.. aren't i over da moon.. lol.. cum 2 tink of it.. it was once my nick 4 frenster.. over da moon.. lol.. ahahakz...

niwae.. back 2 me n him.. yup2.. im back.. haha.. 4 dose who actually dont knw.. it was on our 13 months he initiated it.. he tot dat we shud think over if we were suited 4 each other.. he alleged dat i was not behaving like a propr lady and dat i was often rude.. haiz.. i actually deem dat kind of reasoning as a ludicruos reason after 13 months we've been together la.. so poignant.. haiz..

but all well now.. i guess.. we've talked bout it n everytin.. i've promised 2 change.. ya.. i genuinely mean it oukay.. lol... he 2, promised 2 change.. but dunno when.. still smoking his lungs out.. n now very frequently, kept congregating wif his grp of frens.. haiz.. left me all alone.. sad2.. =( dis one whole weak only on thursday la, go out wif him.. even his mum conjectured dat there's sumtin goin on between me n him.. haha.. hmmm.. but everytin's oukay now.. so ya.. happi.. im so happi...!! =)

oh ya guys n gals.. btw.. im changing my blogspace soon.. u guys shud knw y oso... hehe.. i will go ur blogs n ask u guys 2 link me.. hehe.. so yup!! lastly.. i luv u guys soooooo much.. BUT.. i luv HIM more!! haha.. he's my baby.. my dearest.. hehe.. =) luv u 2 bits darling.. =)

An anniversary prezzie..

2007-05-24T08:40:00.000-07:00

guess wat i got 4 my 1 year anniversary wif fan?? an injured leg.. yup.. haiz.. dunno la.. dun ask me wat happen.. im in a state of shock as well.. sigh.. very da painful la.. haiz..

well.. wont b goin sch 4 a couple of days.. of course will still b in sch 4 presentation la.. but it wud b very difficult la.. haiz...

WHY DO ALL GOOD THINS CUM TO AN END...??

2007-05-23T22:51:00.000-07:00

hmmm.. alot of tings happen since i neva blog.. currently feeling very sour n upset bout certain tings.. y muz i bother bout wat others say in da 1st place..? i dun usually care bout others opinions towards me n yet today im not my usual self.. 2 sensitive dis past weeks.. damn..

why cant u share ur knowledge dat u hav wif others n help dem 2 succeed as well as you... i mean, isn't it kind of selfish?? its juz how 2 do a freakin poster using photoshop, not giving dem da whole ideas on wat to do for their project rite...?? haiz juz dun understand ppl.. juz remember.. knowledge is only powerful when its shared.. geddit..??

niwae.. 2 change da subjects abit.. tom is my 1 year anniversary wif fan..!! haha.. belly2 hapi.. hmmm.. we cum long way ler.. hope dis relationship lasts long kays dear.. i love u so much.. lol... ok2.. no PDA here.. (public display of affection)

but still.. finish sch late tomolo.. further more still got medical appointment.. n fan still hav 2 work.. he's sick u knw.. haiz.. shooo sad.. haha..

oh well... only he is my source of happiness at dis moment.. hmmm.. oh well.. blog again soon.. v.tired.. =P

*Knowledge is only powerful when its shared.. Some ppl pursue happiness, others create it.. me?? i destroy dem.. *

yay

2007-05-02T02:15:00.000-07:00

happen 2 read my frens blog n i feel so much beta.. hmmmm..=)
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To my dear Darina..[[And also to my other dear friends..]]Just wanna say don't give up girl..To me, crying is not a sign of weakness..Yes, it might seem so..Even when I cry I just hate it when others see me cry and I have the same thinking as you..But..It happens..Even so, I think that crying helps..It helps us release some stress somewhere, since we cant get to release it elsewhere(what, you wanna cut yourself?we also can't like shout our hearts out in this small island.. :( )Niway..Third year's a very testing year..You'll feel like giving up, you'll go through much hurdles..Always remember, the end of the journey is so near..Just imagine yourself graduating, so proud, so happy walking on the stage receiving that scroll (yeah, empty it might be..)..Yea, I understand that your journey might be even more testing then the rest of others..You've gotta juggle between 2 jobs, a school, and a guy..That is a real test..But girl..There's always this famous saying..God won't test us of what we are not capable of..And ya..I do believe you'll get through this journey beb..I know I can't be there with you and support you always, but believe me..I'm here.. :) ..hehe..What the heck am I talking about..Ahaks..Yeah beb..Just do take care of yourselves ok..I've been through to what you've been thinking to do..I think you know what I mean..We've talked about that once upon a time..And ya, I don't really mind your 'nonsense' la..It's the norm there..Hehe..Can't thank you enough for bearing with my problems and nonsense..hehe..And about him..Oh well..Let him realise himselve..We can't make people change if they dun want to.. =(
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very touched n sum how has given me dat inner strength.. tanks shamie.. luv ya.. dun worri, my back will b oukay soon ya.. hehe..

dreading being alive

2007-05-02T02:10:00.000-07:00

lets juz hope dat after dis blog is published, i dun get bashed like da gal who got beaten up bcoz of her blog.
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Actually yesterday already wanted to sms you but i dunno what should i say.Anyway, i know you cried yesterday on your way to the YCK mrt station. On behalf of all the group members and myself, we really apologise upon the hurting attitude we done to you yesterday.I know you understand the reason why we tok in hokkien.Seriously to say that yes, it is true we are really kind of upset over the way you handle our project.Becuz you seems so busy over your health,your relationship and your work.And you actually kind of neglect our group project.I wont say you NV do anything becuz the truth is tat you did do sumthing.But is like last min work and all info is not enough. I mean this is our last sem for academic,and there are 8 orjects awaiting for us to be complete.And Jolin and myself are busy collating all the work to hope that things can be done asap and at least we can have a break inbetween.However, HS 3034 seems be stopping and pausing again and again.We are far behind the dateline already.Not only towards you, towards the rest of the group memebr and myself, i want a perfect job to be done.You have stick to my group for 2 years.Should know the way i work.I will get piss off if things dont get done. So please pardon me for having to give you damn attitude yesterday. Just hope that things will get better. And please, if in the future, i assign only certain job to you for ICA, please dun misunderstand it.I dont wish to burden you over ICA.And at least, you can concentrate on yoru other things and you can also finish your assignment on time.Just want to say this: Haivng to spend more time on project, is not for anyone else, but for yourself.As i can say our 5 group, we are not match to changhow and jolin's group.So at least, i hope our teamwork can win anyone of them.Shall we? There are still FYP waiting for us to start off.Just hope that starting from community ICA, we will work closely.
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email frm shiqi.. haiz.. i realli dunno wat 2 say already.. im really physically, emotionally tired.. i dun knw wat 2 feel.. its juz da tears wont stop everytime dis topic cum out.. i cant possibly quit my jobs juz bcoz of projects rite? where do i get my money den.. haiz... juz do watveva i can..

sad2..

2007-05-01T01:20:00.000-07:00

sumtimes i wonder.. how my life wud hav been like if i were 2 enter junior college instead of uptaking a diploma in nursing @ NYP.. my guess, it would b a totally different situation dat im currently now... da major difference is dat no juggling of jobs and school..

i mean, initially at da start of yr 3, i find dat havin 2 manage 2 jobs n school was oukay.. i mean i still hav tyme 2 spend wif fan, even tho if its juz havin dinner after sch or work and den back 2 our own lives.. but today, i felt totally different..

well, cum 2 tink of it, its not dat i cudn't cope.. its juz dat i feel overwhelmed.. i mean we have 5 icas in total, 1 FYP, 1 theory n 1 practical test (more cuming in da other 2 skills modules) n dat haven include da mini presentations dat each module has..

its not easy 2 juggle 2 jobs n school together u knw.. ya, i guess moz ppl dun knw i hav 2 jobs but hey.. wif me "donating" 2 NUH like every single week or month, where am i suppose 2 dig da money if i dun work and produce my own dough eh??

my health is kinda bad oso.. got a strong feeling i gonna b hospitalised soon.. ya, again... haven been eating well, hair like fallin out even more, losing weight, nose blding frequent den ever until its like a norm 4 me, vomit bld once in a while, no appetite and most importantly, not been taking my supplements i.e: folic acid and iron tablets routinely like i shud.. well im bz wrkin, cant possibly take medi in front of customers rite??

hmmm, today hav been breaking down in front of my frens dunno how many tymes... but dun tink dey notice, well i hope not.. i dun wan ppl 2 label me as a weakling.. cant take stress or always sick type.. but its difficult when i dun hav da intention 2 tell dem da real situation dat im in, n i rather juz accept da workload dey giving even if sumtimes i knw its impossible.. no choice.. nothing is impossible..

been prayin dat God can lighten my burden n juz take my life away.. dunno y i even tot 2 da extent of jumping onto da MRT tracks when da train cums.. haiz.. but its sinful... wont do it.. niwae juz hav 2 face my problems n solve it..

b4 i end my rather lengthy blog, i'll like 2 extend my gratitude 4 da following ppl.. 2 da lady in da MRT who passed me tissue paper when i was crying n nose blding profusely.. can neva tank u enuf.. 2 my grp members 4 being very understanding.. 2 siyun who has given me comfort n hope dat tings will b beta, 2 shuyan n eki who made me feel dat sum1 still cares 4 me, 2 my PH frens who im close wif, tank u 4 being patient wif me n bearing wif my nonsense n my problems...

If tomorrow neva cums 4 me... plz, forgive me 4 all da sins i've done whether intentional or non-intentional, wif my knowledge or not, wif u knowing or not.. plz.. 4give me.. tanks.. dats da only ting im askin 4..

will end my blog here.. i feel sick already.......

sad

2007-04-28T01:17:00.000-07:00

din went sch today.. went 4 check up 4 my nose.. still cant find da source of bleeding, after much scope.. from da flexible tube, 2 da rigid scope wif camera.. haiz.. can see some blood clots (rather large ones..) but still da source is yet 2 b confirm.. suspecting it cud b higher up as its not frm other usual places of bleeding.. niwae.. still need 2 cum back 4 another check by da consultant instead of the medical officer which is on thurs.. hope dun hav 2 repay lab again.. sigh..

feeling quite upset n quite not my usual self 2day.. sumhow, i feel dat fan doesn't care bout me anymore.. yesterday already told him dat i got appointment n not goin 2 sch.. yet he can tell me he's gin johore 2 pump oil 2 go chalet @ changi later on.. btw, he off today la.. n still neva accompany me go hospital.. still got da cheek 2 say i din want him 2 send me.. its not dat i dont wan him 2 send, i want 2, n oso ask him 2 accompany me thru out da procedure.. but wat u expect me 2 do?? when he tell u all his plan 4 him.. cant expect him 2 change plans juz 4 me rite? im not a selfish person..

like dat nvm.. i called him b4 i took da bus 2 NUH n yet he neva even mention bout wanting 2 send me.. of course la, he got ask me b4 in da mrng but i told him specifically.. do wateva u want.. well since he's not outside my hse waiting 4 me 2 send me n when i double confirm he neva mention anytin, of course i assume dat he doesn't wan 2 send me la... correct?? if he was sincere enuf in wanting 2 send me, he wud hav definitely wait outside rite?? very upset..

den 1 whole day neva bother 2 msg me how was my checkup n so on.. neva even call oso.. only a msg at 9 plus saying he fetching frm work.. wat if i din turn up 2 work juz now coz i hav 2 b admitted?? he wudnt knw rite?? haiz.. really make me sad he treat me dis way.. all i wanted was at least he show some concern 4 me.. but none.. i really feel as if no1 really cares bout me.. went home juz now mum scold me tell me how cum i very sickly.. tot only my sister was sickly.. who wants 2 b sick.. not me.. not every1 dat i knw of..

i wish i cud juz die.. so i heart wont ache anymore.. its so painful now.. haiz..

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----------------Love is nothing but pain, in it, there's nothing much to gain...--------------------

pissed

2007-04-21T09:26:00.001-07:00

imagine dis.....

u "made" a cake 4 ur fren's bdae n sum1 juz had 2 spoil da cake by spraying sumtin dat doesn't go wif da cake AT ALL.... will u blow up?? here u r trying 2 mke a special cake 4 ur dear fren n sum1, who's not even close 2 u or related 2 ur fren comes n spoil it?? n its GARLIC SPRAY 4 heaven's sake... imagine whipped creamwif garlic taste...??!!! uuurrrghhhhh...

yeah... it happen 2 me... im freakin pissed... well... its fatin's bdae n i decided 2 give her a surprise.. asked sham 2 buy cake but she din buy... so hav 2 cum out wif other alternatives since its past 11 pm... wat shop still open sia... so me n fan decided go 7-eleven 2 hav a look...

tot of buying da cheesecake... but 2 small n its not v nice.. suddenly saw dis sara lee pound cake... bought mini mnm's, pocky sticks n create it at ph..

took out da cake from da foil 2 da ph rectangular plate.. sprayed whipped cream on top, pour mnms on da whipped cream n break da pocky sticks n put ard da cake.. put candle at da centre n happy bdae sign at da side n its done.. n yet after fatin receive it n blew da candle, sum1had 2 juz spray garlic spray on da cake... wth!!!! haiz...

so angry.. tink i got out of control sia.. shouted vulgarities at da person loudly.. first tyme sia... haiz... cum 2 tink f it oso, tink i overreacted... but... well... haiz... dunno lar...

juz hope fatin is not angry or upset dat her celebration has turn awry... haiz... very sori my dear fren... haiz.... goin 2 let off sum steam n reflet now.. tatas 4 dis blog... =(

hey2.. =)

2007-04-20T10:10:00.001-07:00

hmmm.. bloggin again.. lol.. first of all... can tell u 1st.. yr 3 sucks... my god, so much icas la.. die sia.. haiyo.. but most of all tink pity shiqi lar.. tink she very stress up lei.. wish can help her so she feel less stress.. dun stress2 kays.. anytin ifi can help, ill help.. =) tink moz of us will b willing 2 help ba.. muz ask kays..

yr 3 4 da pass week is... err.. stressfull.. i mean i knw its normal lar.. but so many icas n da books v confusing.. always end up bringin wrong book.. haiz.. yar.. u guys muz b tinkin i blur sotong.. but really lor.. i not only 1.. hor???

hmmm.. feel v tired already lei.. will update later today aites.. yawn.. nites...

i miss him..

2007-04-13T01:26:00.000-07:00

hmmm... been da 3rd time im tapping on others internet.. no kick sia.. still da same account i use.. lol... well.. it will b good if all da way like dat sey.. free internet... lol... u guys shud try man...

tanks 2 all my peeps who has lend me their support during my these trying tymes... God... u knw wat.. i miss him... but he still haven contact me... y?? does he hate me already?? i hope not... sigh...

today went out wif fatin... wif da other 2 ex ph gr crew, Lim n Yun long... dey brought 2 frens along wif dem, hakim n i cant remember da other person name... God... STM!! Niwae, we ate Pizza hut @ PS.. was very fun lar.. long tyme neva meet yl n lim.. lim still da same, wif his horny jokes.. lol... yl, getting slimmer lei i find... haha.. preparing 4 ns ma... tom going le.. actually today la... 13 already.. so sweet of hakim la... juz knw him, he paid 4 da meal which was 112 bucks... when me n fatin wanted 2 pay, he say dun wan.. paiseh.. lol... guys n their ego.. cant neva b separated rite.. haha.. 2 yl... gd luck hor.. muz lose weight kays.. dun let ppl bully u during ns... hehe...

speaking of which.. today is friday da 13th.. haha... hmm... but will b workin.. so cant o ard n scare ppl rite.. lol... so ppl beware ya.. hehe...

oh well, 3 days more 2 start of yr 3.. sumhow kinda dread it but u knw... its better 2 get it over n done wif.. still.. i dun knw how ill survive PRCP later on.. confirm die lor... jia lat... :p

well, beta end here... feel kinda sleepy.. ate 2 full i guess... lol... nites peeps.. i mean mrng!!!

******************** miss u so much dearie... do u hate me 4 slappin u?? ******************

its over

2007-04-11T09:47:00.001-07:00

after 10 months n 18 days.. its over between me n him.. sigh.. ya, i knw.. u guys might b tinkin.. wasted rite.. but dis concerns my happiness n his.. dunno y la.. there has been conflicts n conflicts revolving us but i guess our foundation juz isn't there..
not dat i wanted 2 slap him hard.. i din even knw dat i cud muster such strength 2 slap him.. i knw it was hard.. coz my hand hurt after dat.. im sure he felt it 2.. its not dat i wanted 2.. he ask 4 a slap.. ya.. i mean literally.. " klu u nak alik tampar muka i dulu.." i mean wat was i supposed 2 do rite??
my feelings 4 him.. like gone.. but dunno where.. i mean, ya.. my heart ache when he said all dose gdbye stuff.. but where's da feeling?? i only had dat sense of pity for him.. but y??
it's always been me, 2 listen 2 him, solve his every problem.. when it cums 2 me.. does he?? haiz.. i really dunno wat 2 feel.. heartache sey.. sigh..

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well here r my 6 weird things bout myself..
1. i slp like da dead.. i mean all covered up..
2. i talk 2 myself all da time.. like literally out loud.. even during exams..
3. i can slp over 24 hrs.. yeah!! i love slpin
4. i secretly wish dat ppl wud pay more attention 2 me
5.when i lie, i feel like puking.. dun ask me y!!
6.i loooovvvvveeee lookin mat myself in da mirror.. ya.. vanity rulez..!!

does who get tagged plz do da following.. blog on 6 weird things bout urself n tag 6 frens 2 read urblog n they hav 2 do juz dat.. hav fun..

woohoo..

2007-04-09T09:52:00.001-07:00

hmmm... cant believe i'm tapping on other ppl internet.. haha... lol... hmmmm.. shall do it more often... its fun.... u shud try it.. haha... juz kiddin...

yeah, sch startin sch soon... yippeee!!! no more spending long hours at home... not dat i mind... but start sch means can go shoppin 4 new stuff... haha... any1 wanna join?? :p

niwaes... my hols are kinda bored so far... work, rot at home... sigh... dis is wat u call relaxing... haha... so fun... i mean not like i get 2 do dis often, dun cha tink... 3 weeks... enjoy!!! left 1 week only... so fast... sigh...

goin yr 3... feel kinda scared ya knw.... wat wif added pressure... from family... sigh... like most of my frens preparin 2 go nus already... n im still stuck in poly... sian sey... met hazariah juz now n she told me she goin there.. sigh... why did i enter poly in da first place... hmmm... depressed ler....

niwae, if any of my ex classmates readin dis.. do strive on wat ur doin now.. aites... hmmm...

after imh

2007-03-26T06:36:00.001-07:00

finally!!!!! attachments are over... haha... IMH very fun.. patients very cute... lol... not in a sense cute la... but more of innocent... dey dun realli understand wat dey are doin n wats happening... but i really enjoy da posting. n i miss dem TERRIBBBLLLLLYYYYY!!!!
nieways... back to my focus... its da hols now... really dunno wat 2 do... haha... well juz today, i found myself juz lazing around da house la.... my god... n its gonna b 3 weeks lei.. sigh... gonna b so fat when sch starts... eat sleep eat sleep... haha... well... goin shoppin next week prob... any one wanna join??? hehe...
well... wanna watch tv already...
toodles....!!!!! i miss IMH................... :-(

hmmm..

2007-03-17T08:16:00.001-07:00

currently v bz wif attachment.. like freakin lazy 2 update.. 2 bad.. sum1 ask me 2 update.. well, dear daya... i'm updating now... haha..

niwae i'm now attached at imh, prtty fun lar.. quite true wat da staff nurse say.. dun go there if you dun wanna lose ur skills.. dey do practically nothin la.. lol..

patients there very friendly n fun.. first tyme c crisis intervention... haha.. kewl man... ya.. n u guys knw sumtin?? i'm gettin pretty zany myself.. screw a bit loose la... haha..

hmmm.. enuf bout imh.. fear of breach of confidentiality.. lol... hhmmm..

oh ya.. tom gonna b an interesting day.. gonna surprise 1 of my good frens at her hse.. pretty fun eh?? hehe... hmmm... will update u guys on dat.. if i accidentally spill da beans i'm gonna b like so dead... like da other 8 peeps will cum n slaughter me...

work wise has been oukay.. startin at marina mandrin soon.. hehe... pay oukay la... 5.7/hour.. nt bad eh? beta den ph.. lol... beta dun start da pay debate, there might b some pro ph readin dis.. lol...

shhesh... y did i hav 2 start talkin bout work.. its like... auurggghh.. NEXT TOPIC!!!

well... my results of exams r out.. tank God, i passed everytin... so freakin scared... but most of my mates did pretty well... congrats guys!!! happi 4 u all... hehE..

oh well... will update soon... its already 11 plus... hav 2 get up early tom... toodles!!

bubbye!! :p

* i tomorrow never comes... *

hmmmm.. wats new??

2007-02-21T03:35:00.001-08:00

well2... hehe.. actually hor i dunno wat 2 say oso lar.. but ppl ask me to update i update lor... LOL.. hehe...
hmmmm, bio paper is in 2 days, not much studyin yet but rest assured i will study.. da other papers seems 2 b quite tough... sigh... it will b a miracle if i get thru da papers.... attachment oso coming up... sigh... tired of attachments, attachments n attachments.. sheesh...

niwae, i'm juz kinda tinking bout some things which i feel i rather keep 2 myself at da moment...rather than 2 hurt anyone around me... sigh, dis is life, u go about putting a smile on ur face, lying ur way thru, well, not say lying... white lie?? i dunno... yup, saying things that actually u dun mean juz 2 plz certain ppl around u... i guess dis is juz how things goes in life in order 2 survive one day at a tyme...

SIGH... wateva...

** i might b putting a smile on my face, but dun ever try 2 guess my feelings inside... **

thank you eki...

2007-02-13T01:39:00.001-08:00

haha... new lappie causin loads of trouble... install dis n dat, setup n so on... sigh.. headache...

lucky got eki.. haha... i'm such a goon at information technology or IT.. lol...

niwae now, can use already... so happy... :P

i wan to complain.. e-learning freakin slow...!!!! MAYB EVERYONE using... can u all pls stop using so i can use?? tank u... sigh... i'll probably juz go without accessing my e-learning... tink oukay la... fail, fail lor.. got sup ma... LOL.. choy...

niwae, all da bez 2 all those taking exams...last words: DUN STUDY ALREADY!!!! it's my turn....! *hmmph*

moody...

2007-02-08T19:31:00.000-08:00

fan is beside me now in da library.. dunno y he like moody like dat... sigh.. wat hav i done wrong dis tyme?? sigh...

well, today's like da last day of skool, exams coming... so stressed out.. sigh... starting on 2117 soon... like probably later... c if tired not la... i knw most of my classmates already started revising... oh heck... neva mind... tortoise won da race ma...

hmmm.. dunno y getting tired so easily 4 da past few days.. i even go to the extend of reading da drug guide bout the medications which i took... oh ya.. iron tablets does cause constipation... sigh.. i already got constipation still give me this.. means... DOUBLE constipation lor.. sigh.. now my bowel habits is like once every week.. LOL.. :p but good la.. save tyme.. hehe...

pizza hut called yesterday.. asked if i really wan to quit.. told dem i work 4 da chinese new year la, den consider back if really want to quit, den can also ask if i can transfer csc not.. haha... easy life.. ph oso short of ppl... cant imagine dem short staffed during new year... sigh...

niwae.. good luck 2 all my mates ya... may we pass wif flying colours eh... supp paper?? dun even tink of it...

p.s.: cch... dun paiseh hor, papa... daughters n mama really want u to hav da present.. u deserve it.. haha.. LOL... peace...

warning letter alert..

2007-02-06T12:39:00.000-08:00

oukay.. rite now i'm freakin scared dat probably i'm getting a warning letter... so scared kena debarrment.. oh if u guys dun knw wat happen, i was actually hospitalised..

shockin eh... haha... i din knw my condition is freakin serious la... first dey say i'm anaemic n now " we suspect that there's a growth in her brain"... like wow, its like telling a kid a ghost story... my parents acted strong but i can tell u they wanna knw wats wrong wif their freakin daughter... sigh... y cant i juz die... da world wud b a much better place anyway..

back to the warning letter... i really dunno wat to say to my parents... haven i give dem enuf trouble already..??? haiz... sum more i'm currently unemployed... well, yar... i've quited pizza hut... feel like a free person... miss those peeps over there.. but hey... life's gotta move on dun cha tink... niwae juz hope dat dey sign the freakin thing n dun bother askin too many questions.. i mean, it wont bother me much aites?? it's alraedy da last week of skool... yay... but exams coming... attachments too... arrgh... so sick of dem... really dun feel like continuing my studies... sigh... let go everytin... beta still... sigh...

niwaes.. juz pray hard everytin goes well n dat i can find a new job fast.. sigh.. got lobang tell me aites...

nypals...

2007-01-19T02:32:00.000-08:00

hmmm... juz attended a meeting with nypals ppl... even tho i helper only still come... tanks to twin... haha... well, katherine really very fierce la... haha.. first tyme c her like dat, quite... speechless...?? hehe.. actuallie meeting haven finish lor, but twin hav 2 meet her frens n her boyfriend waitin... so i left wif her.. stay 4 wat... like i so close to dem like dat..

25 jan will b officiaaly my 2 years in ph... sigh... very long work there le... sigh... really wan 2 change job but my dearie say dun change since he workin there oso... i mean, i've no mood to work anymore... year3 coming where do i find the time to work?? besides, the environment has totally changed, not like it used to be... no offence, ppl do change at certain times in life... sigh...

in sch rite now with siyun n shiqi... helpin dem wif 2056 ica... well in a way not help la.. hav to do also.. coz my ica oso ma.. really touched 2 c dat they do till dis late... i'm glad dat in some way i'm of a help... :p

niwae, exams coming.. dunno wan 2 study not... lol... of course muz study, it's juz a matter of when to start.. haha.. :p

* you gotta fight, for your right....*

sad...

2007-01-12T16:00:00.000-08:00

juz read one of my closest fren blog... seems like i'm not da only one who feels she's in da wrong.. well nvm... wats pass is pass... juz one lesson aite... even if u knw da person 4 a long tyme... neva ever trust fully... sigh... i feel kinda cheated but wat 2 do... it's like dat already... memang takde jodoh ngan dier kot... i'm not meant 2 be wif him... dats y it happen...

i'm not da cruel one, it's juz happened.. y muz u blame me when everythin happen 4 a reason..

dats it.. dun wanna blog anymore.. :(

2007-01-08T23:50:00.000-08:00

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forced to update...

2007-01-08T15:58:00.000-08:00

haha.. forced to update by jolin n shuyan... hehe.. well so sorry haven been updating 4 so long.. will update if got tyme.. promise2... hehe

niwae... juz wanna wish a late merry xmas n new year.. knw its kinda late but who cares...?? i'm still in holiday mood n i'm sure da rest oso rite... hehe...

tanks so much 2 my classmates 4 da presents... really touched... hehe,, :p

to my darlin fan... hope you dun hav 2 go overseas ya... miss you.. ;(

niwae 2 everone sorry 2 keep u waiting 4 my blog... haha.. peace...

"why do all good things come to an end...."

saddistic saddie...

2006-08-25T13:51:00.000-07:00

hmmmm... its juz one of those days where i feel totally not me.... i dun knw... somehow feel like sad?? feel as if i haven been happy 4 a long2 tyme... i'm juz like sad... reasons?? i'm not sure myself... sigh...

yesterday was my 3 months with fan... dunno y i dun feel da slightess happiness in me... probably after wat he has done and everytin... i'm not really sure i'm hanging on coz i luv him or i pity him... sigh... having a guy oso cant make u happy sia... might as well b single... stoopid...

workplace really kinda sucks now... alot of politics and back stabbing everywhere.... i knw sumhow dat sum ppl dun like me in my workplace... fine... i juz cant please everyone can i?? niwaes... juz hope dat i can find another beta job dat is good paying n dat is flexible... tinking of switching to the call centre.. CSC... haha... oukay wat... :p but far lar... any recommendations anyone??

yesterday my classmates celebrated Jane's b'dae... so sorry i cant b there... i ended work late lar... hope u guys dun mind ya... 2 jane... i'm really sorry dear... :( owe u one... hehe... really glad u liked da prezzie n da celebration they threw 4 u... :p

meeting up wif yanti n eki on tues... so excited... haha.... it's been a long tyme man... hehe... dis is da only thing dat i'm lookin forward 2... sigh...

anyways... shall stop here... sigh... back 2 my sad life... :-(

** hav u ever wondered when was da last tyme u felt happy?? **

bio sucks...

2006-08-21T20:49:00.000-07:00

damn... bio was hard... oukay lar... topics dat i studied did cum out... spot on sum questions... but oukay lar... dun tink i'll fair dat well... totally blank out on sum questions... sigh... sub probably?? hah.. choy...

miss my darlin dearly... dunno y... sigh... dun wanna blog further... beta start muggin 4 2035... sigh...

** where'd u go?? i miss u so...**

bio.... ??

2006-08-21T12:53:00.000-07:00

hmmmm... havin my bio paper later in da day... been mugging but dun knw if its in my head or not lar... haha... sigh... bio is complicated... like me?? wahahahaha...

hmmmm.... guess wat....!! i've a latest discovery of myself... i've got grey hair... aaarrrrgggghhh....!!! terrible sia... all dis while i tot i wont hav... haha.... gonna dye again b4 raye... n eki... i nid ur help 4 dis... haha... coz w/o u.. it wont look like a highlight job... haha... u've got da magic darlin'... hehe... :p do text me when ya free kays...

fasting is cuming up real fast... so is my bdae n so is raye... n so is attachment... haish... so boring raye still have to go attachment... stoopid sia... kakazs...

tink rite now, my workplace kinda stinx... it sucks big tyme sia... management lar... haha... oh well... shudn't b complainin much lar... as long i got my roster n den get paid 4 it can ler... it's 4 da customer's i'm workin 4... haha... Go the extra mile la like dat... kekez...

oh well... beta start mugging back... paper is in less than 4 hrs!!! hah... bye now... n peeps... gd lck on ur papers....

** i'm still happy being wif you darlin'... juz wish dat we had more things 2 talk bout when we're 2gether...**

hehey...

2006-08-16T12:46:00.000-07:00

hmmm.. tom is my first paper... for those whose havin papers too good luck ya... haha... i knw2... supposed 2 be studyin but lazylar... juz c how la... haha...

oh ya... for those who wants me to link them, plz put ur addy at my tagboard la... ask me to link how to link if i dun knw ur add rite... haha... hmmm... k lars... ciao... tag me.... :p

hey...

2006-08-14T13:05:00.000-07:00

its been a long tyme since i've blogged... ard 1 month one week... wahahaha.. sorry la... bz2... no tyme ler...

a few of my fren's b'dae juz passed juz wanna say happy belated and advanced b'dae.. sorry cudn't b there 2 celebrate.... :p but i'm sure u guys had fun w/o me nonetheless...

hmmm.. guess its juz dat tyme of the year again... da tyme where i feel life seems so meaningless, feels so lonely, bored... juz totally sick of life... why do ppl behave the way they do?? do they knw tat it hurts ppl ard them who cares?? guys juz totally suck... i pity sri alot.. she got punched by her own guy... wat kind of a guy r u?? son of a gun...

rasfan oso not tat good either... y muz i hold back my tyme spent wif my frens n not u hold back ur tyme wif ur frens... its always ur frens tat we meet everytime u book out... no quality tyme together... juz da both of us?? its far from possible da way i see it... i'm sorry dear but tink it's time for both of us to go our own separate ways... we're not meant to be darling...

hmmm... supposed to b studyin for my upcoming exams... but i'm juz mentally drained out... dunno wat to tink already... haiyo... muz b due to attachment n work... haha... but dis week mon-fri not wrkin lei... haha... tanks to amir n sham... replace me... haha... :p so sweet of u guys...

**sumtymes hav u wondered when was the last tyme u feel very happy??**

michael ballack? lukaz podolski? christiano ronaldo?

2006-07-07T15:16:00.000-07:00

haha... call me a football freak but ever since world cup started i've been following it la... well not really follow but i wud watch germany's match la... haha... michael ballack n lukaz podolski rules...!! hehe... hmmm christiano ronaldo so cute la haha... damn... if only my boyfriend wud look like dat... sigh...

hmmmm... supposed to be doin myu leadership essay but i juz cant seem to concentrate la... cant even write.. and it's due tom!!!! gosh... 1000 word essay lei... where can... bout a leader... haha... can write bout michael ballack... but not much info bout him la on the internet... got pics only... so cute!!! haha... :p

oh well must start on it now... tataz 4 now...

ps: miss my peeps... :p

hmmm...

2006-06-26T11:01:00.000-07:00

so much things has happened since i last blog... been a month sia... so long... hah... bz lar... so sorry... lets c... highlights 4 da past month...

Hmmmm... last blog wrote bout me involved in champs challenge... yup, my hardwork has paid off!!! well actually my grp's hardwork paid off... thanks 2 our great coach eric... haha... to arinah, sue, reduan, nasri n noorullah, u guys hav been great buddies 4 da past 2 weeks...!! miss n love u guys loads... haha... hmmm... 4 u guys out there we actually won 2nd runner up (means 3rd place but sounds nicer don u tink??) and also best hospitality excecution as a team... PIZZAHOLICS....!! we rock... lol...

Hmmmm... 24 jun was officially one month between me n him... haha... so happy... hmmm... he's in camp now, but at least get to book out every weekend... hehe... :p yup...!!

school starts today... haiz... canot slack ler... postings oso out n everything... sigh... so sian... still haven start on my individual project... lol... nvm... slowly do...

adious... till da next entry... (which is dunno when...) :p

where is my direction??

2006-05-24T16:50:00.000-07:00

Hmmmm.. long tyme since i update ler... in library now... doing bio tut n practical... tot i did go blogging 4 awhile... juz now dunno y, suddenly feel very cold n was shivering, like literally shaking... taking da que, decided to buy sweets and fruit juice... feel beta sumhow... wonder why...

Alot of things have been going on the past few weeks... 2 presentation are finally over... left with 2 more and another 1 individual one... so much burden have been lifted up my shoulders... finally... lecturer say we done quite well, so tanks to my frens who worked hard with me for the hs2118 n hs2036... another hs2118 coming up next week, i finally pass da disket to siyun... haha.. sorry.. :p

work is.... work... currently involved in champs challenge wif sufi n nizam.. dunno like weird like tat.. cant seem to get along wif them... often da unusual silence... sigh.. dollie actually noticed tat i've changed... i'm so sorry... i'm juz stressed up wif sch, work, rc, hafriz, family.. so sorry if i'm throwing tantrums... tanks 4 ur understanding my fren...

sum how, i juz feel tat i'm like sum wat have already distanted from my poly frens... duno y.. dun wish to get involve in politics of da class... juz hope tat da class gathering on 24 june will make things beta...

finally my family is like settled... haiz... seems tat problems have been settled... dunno if its juz da surface or not... aftertat incident, my parents realise tat they shud actually spent more tyme wif my siblings... bz working, neglecting us... hope it stays dis way...

i'm missing sum one but not u, im hating sum one not sure its u, i'm loving sum one tat used to be u, i'm messing things up now bcoz of u...

sigh!!! i wanna change my blog skin!! not appropriate!!!

2006-05-17T13:33:00.000-07:00

hmmm... long tyme neva update le... so much tings has happen... got to knw alot of things that i dun tink i wanna know rite now... coz for me i'm still prioritizing my studies den anything else... work, love can take a step back first...

projects getting on pretty fine i muz say... even tho i was sick like few days ago, nose bleed n stuff... but oukay la but much much beta now... hehez...

in school coping well la... juz tat trying very hard not to be late ler... hehez.. late a few times dis week... hehe... all tanks to dollie n hafiz whom i always go to sch since da start of dis year... fun bunch to be wif i must say... n for u guys info, dollie is a guy!!! lol...

at work... not been active la... only work weekends n public hols... kena complain on vesak day... say i was rude to customer!!! u cant here me, of course i say louder la... den say i cud hav used a nicer tone... idiot!! f*** la... kanasai... haiz... cum to tink of it.. i dun bother liao... u want to complain go ahead la....!!! go n die sia... Fu** it...!!! dun want to talk bout it ler...

hmmm... later going of to ph for training... rasfan sending me... hah... so happie... *blueks* tell u how it went ya... :p

Long sia...

2006-05-03T19:52:00.000-07:00

hmmmm... doin my bio e tut n prac rite now... taking a break... hmmm... long tyme neva update ler...

of course alot of things happen... but my stress level is always the same la... stress as ever.. hs2036 is realli killing me... haiz... sch so far is oukay... alot of hiding from sum ppl... make me feel insecure myself... kept tinkin tat mayb they talkin bout me like tat... haha... nvm... as long as i do my work can liao...

worked during labour day... despite workin da previous days n work from 1-11pm on da day itself, it seem dat i enjoyed myself alot... tanks to sumone la... haha.. even do alone outside not so bored.. hehe.. he so cute sia... haha.... es***d**... haha... :-p

hmmm.... well... will update if there's any updates... going back to my bio... haiz... sian!!!

hmmm...

2006-04-25T13:37:00.000-07:00

hallo... long tyme neva update ler... busy2 wif sch stuff... very stress i tell u... haha...

hmmmm... first week of sch was disasterous!!! all ica here n there... haiz.. so tired n stress... grp leader 4 one of da ica... so sucky.. coz i barely know wats goin on n i hav 2 assign 11 other ppl in my grp!! haiz.. sad sia... so stress oso...

been workin less since sch started... trying not to work weekdays le... but everytyme get roster on weekday... feel very tired n lots of things now hav to learn urself not like year 1 so must sacrifice work lor... n learn to save money oso... since i'm workin less rite now... haha.. jenny like not happie sia when i came down yesterday to tell her aisyah replace me... haha... so fun see her frown... frown sum more la... get more wrinkles on ur face....!!! :p

mum oso workin already even tho papa dun allow... sigh... still fighting dunno for wat oso... poor sisters hav 2 endure dis... poor me!!! hav to act strong in front of them sum more... sigh... dun wan to talk bout it anymore...

so sad... liting told me can see my 'baldness' liao... die sia... it's getting worse... beta go c doctor again... meanwhile hav to keep tying up my hair... :-(

kinda regret not goin jc... saw zulaikha yesterday n we like chatted a while... kinda akward la, coz we both not tat close... no offence la but she sound as if i like stupid neva go join her n da only few malay peeps over at jc... sigh... dunno la... really feel nursing not for me...

** I dropped a tear in the ocean. when u find it, tats when i'll stop lovin u... **

hmmm...

2006-04-24T22:23:00.000-07:00

school...

2006-04-18T09:59:00.000-07:00

school today was oukay so far... dunno later how la... haiyo... sick of tinking bout it...

still dunno wat concession to buy... bus or mrt.....???

my work roster gettin less sia... only got 3 days... sat sun n mon... wed neva get.... sigh....

no money ler!!!!

no change...

2006-04-17T13:34:00.000-07:00

haiz... sch started already... actually was really lookin forward to it la but really dunno wat happen in da end... mcm lain gitu... dis is not wat i expected of sch!!!!!

hmmmm... a total of 8 modules dis semester... alot lor.... haiz... damn tired n sick... i need sum pampering over here!!!!

things r turning out 4 da worse... cum 2 tink of it beginnin 2 hate school... mcm kena separated n i dun like it at all!!!!! dreading school....

i juz hate my lyfe rite now... dunno wats wrong... evenif i knw wats wrong, i cant change it coz it's a fact!!! *bleuks!!*

Lyfe is like war. you will neva get out alive n at da same tyme get scars... yes scars heal over tyme but not mine!!!!!

You ain't worth my tears, you ain't worth my tyme, you're ain't worth my lyfe when you ain't mine....

Shut up n move on!!!!

school startin soon....

2006-04-12T15:00:00.000-07:00

hmmmm... sch startin soon... so ic... haiz... so not fun...

miss sum one a whole lot sey... haiz...

oh ya... had fun with siyun n shiqi yesterday... played archade got 2 winnie the pooh... one for me n shiqi... i cant seem 2 get for siyun lei... so sad... haiyo... but overall fun lar... even take neoprints!!! lol...

gotta go now... goin out wif sham!!!!

sad..

2006-04-05T19:17:00.000-07:00

quite sad to read my frens blog... dunno y oso... lyke feel left out lyke tat... suddenly forget me like tat... hmmmm... nvm... sum tings even tyme cant change... oh well...

everyone seems to b having problems of their own... as for me yup... i'm not left out... God too has given me some problems to settle... haiz...

rite now, been busy with work... earning money for sum surgical procedure which is due in da next 2 months... not tat it's alot of money but its really not worth it... tinking of juz not going 4 it... den da money can use to go shopping... hahaha...

hmmm... speakin of frens... it's been really a long tyme since i went out... yup like really go out... be it with poly frens or even sec sch frens... it's not tat i dun wan to go out one lor... neva even bother to ask... neva msg oso... fine lor... so wat... haiz... life juz gets suckier as days goes by...

work at pizza hut doesn't seem to get better too... juz when parames is back, she's transfered to bukit timah plaza... so far... some of us tinkin of transfering too... but still tinkin of greenridge n da ppl over there... memories... sigh...

oh ya... juz knw da meaning of my name... othe light of the wall... yup the wall... [cahaya tembok] wat kinda name is dat...?? i dunno... well tats wat my religious teacher said... she told me not to take da wall as a whole but really take da characteristic of the wall... wat characteristic does a wall hav anyway... wateva... stone-hearted?? yikes...!!

hmmmm... tryin not to mia from red cross... hahaha.. ys been sayin tat i mia alot... hmmm... try my best lor... helpin out in wrcd wat... oh ya.. promotion kinda suck... dey din call my name n when they did i wasn't even prepared lor.. crap rite... so fed up... haiz...

** life doesn't always go your way... look at ur fingers... life is full of up n downs...**

SIGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1SIGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SIGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

long tyme neva update ler...

2006-03-31T16:08:00.000-08:00

alot of tings happen since i neva updated...

too many too say even...

haiz... well first tings first...

juz cut my hair... wahahaha... throw all da bad luck i muz say... hmmmm...

goin for red cross promos at york hotel... promoted to sco ler... hahaha... well most of my batchmates r anyway...

passed my yr 1 sem 2... gonna b a yr 2 already... no more greenhorn lo... haha..

parames came back... miss her sia.. haha...

hmmm... things at pizza hut r oukay now... i guess...

got a new job at bata, den quited... pay too low lar... 2.50 pr hour... siao sia...

hmmm... tink darin hasn't changed yet... still da same... nyahahahaha.... cant wait for yr 2!!!!! miss my sch peeps... lurve u guys..

n ya eki... we'll go out sumday w/o sum ppl ya... haha.. u knw wat i mean... ;-p

** i'm not mean, ur juz not cute enuf**

Asian Aerospace 2006

2006-02-26T17:33:00.000-08:00

yesterday was very very fun!! i enjoyed myself sey... wahahaha... even tho had 2 wake up at 6am n wait 4 sham it is still one of da days i will neva forget... wait... its beginnin 2 sound like da compo which i write in sec sch... da most memorable day of my life... ya rite...

hmmm... went 2 da asian aerospace exhibition wif sham n zairul... it was damn fun lor i tell u... da planes were so amazing.. speechless was i... but two things tat i dun like is dat it was so hot dat i'm now so dark!!! n dat da planes were very loud... wat do u tink rite?? they r planes... not vaccuum cleaner...

after tat sham had 2 go to work n me n zai went 2 changi airport 2 hav Burger King... i knw... bk again rite... hey dey having offer u knw... wahahahha... went 2 meet shiqi oso... see her in her wrkin clothes like funny sia... eh, muz go visit me when i wrk oukay... can visit zai oso... me n zai had a fun tyme disturbing joyce... nyahahahha... so funny... she even fell 4 it... sorry hor mama... but dun hav 2 say in front of zairul i got blog wat rite?? he very clever find blog 1 u knw...

a note 2 sham... sorry if i neglected u during da exhibition... sorry ya... n hope dat venture era ppl wont bother us... peace...

venture era???

2006-02-24T15:15:00.000-08:00

went to da so called interview at da venture era thingy... kinda crap la... gonna change my no so they wont bother me... so ma fan... sigh...

hmmm... rite now in da library... plain bored... juz had Bk lunch... oukay la... dun like bk much but since it was free... eat je la...

tom goin 2 dis aviation exhibition... dunno who else goin sey... smua keje... ade kluar ngan mummy.. wahahhaha.. ade yg short of cash... actually me 2... but oukay la... not so bad until nothin 2 eat n stuff...

oukay, i knw.. it kinda clashes wif da venture era basic training... but i'm not goin... gonna change my no... jadi tak dapat contact... or cook up some story la... wahahahha... so bad sey darin... haiz...

gonna catch a movie now... yup... alone... sick rite... nyahahahaha... oukay wat.. once in a while jadi loner... hehez... tataz...

1082...

2006-02-21T14:53:00.000-08:00

1st tyme i have no confidence in a paper!! 1082 especially da maternity section was real tough... dun knw sia... anyhow guess only... only sum i can figure out... sigh... dun expect high marks 4 dis module... hope my icas can help...

tomolo's 1030- psychology paper... dis one shud b oukay la... plz... i hope i dun screw dis up sia... Haiz... thurs 1034- biology... even worse then 1082.... die... dun tink i confident of passing la... but my practical will help... i tink...

Friday is gonna b a fun day... i hope... since i dun havta go 2 sch, no exams, no nid 2 work... dunno wat i'm gonna do... tot of goin 4 a movie n den go ice skating... not tat i knw how 2 ice skate... sum sort la... zai teach me b4... tomolo will be da 8 months dat i neva practice my ice skatin... yup... 22 june... sigh.... but anyway... muz go find sum1 2 accompany me on fri n entertain me... if not tak kan nak i sorang2 sey... haiyo... if cannot find any1 2 entertain me den i rent vcds n watch vcds n rot at home lor... sad rite?? haiz...

Hmmmm, bout da venture era interview dis thurs at 5pm... sham say she's not wrkin so can accompany me... dunno how it will be like sia... haiz...

got 2 kids in da next cubicle beside me at da library now... so cute!!! knock on da glass door n say hi 2 me... wave sumore... so cute.. Awwwwww...

Hmmm, beta get to work wif my e-lectures... sayonara...

totally gone case...

2006-02-20T15:07:00.000-08:00

tat's it!!! i'm gonna fail my 1082 & 1034... bloody com... oukay la... dunno whether i'm doin da correct way oso.. haiz... can't seem 2 print it at all...!!!

worse of all, i haven even started on 1082!!! which is like tomolo... n now pizza hut nids replacement!!! wad da fuck sia... oukay... sorie 4 da vulgarities!! but really totalli pissed... tat's it... i'm totally a gone case 4 1082 & 1034... haiz... so dead... wateva la... i dun care...

I'M SICK OF MY FUCKIN LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

0ne more tyme...

2006-02-20T14:11:00.000-08:00

I'm gonna go for da final attempt on tryin 2 print my e-learning... haiz... make sure can sey... Plz God!!!!

I give up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-02-18T17:36:00.000-08:00

Printing da e-learnin sucks oukay... i hate copyin already!!!i'm seriously failing 1082 juz because i'm bloody hell lazy 2 copy directly frm there n tryin 2 print from da library com is totally givin me a headache!!! i dun care alraedy...!!! Dying!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

go to hell wif life!!!!!!!!

its over...

2006-02-18T16:56:00.000-08:00

Dunno wateva happened 2 hafriz... he's totalie change... shan't comment further..

doin my e-learnin for 1030 now... haiz... studyin is so not 4 me..

announcement!!! dun tink gonna quit ph anytime soon... zairul's gonna help me find my source of motivation n get back 2 work... wont show tat i'm a loser to shah!! wahahaha...

School com sucks!!!

2006-02-17T23:28:00.000-08:00

Walao.... sch com damn slow sia... use da cms oso slow... wat an idiot... give up... haiz...

Got a converse jacket n bag for v-day... tanks hafriz...

Aniq's turnin out 2 b a nice guy...

My stomach hurts!!

Drank coffee... urgh... yucks!!

My prepaid is low!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Be my valentine....

2006-02-14T17:40:00.000-08:00

Oukay... its valentine's day... n yup.. dateless... as usual... haiz... juz finish revising for 1029... 4 more modules to go... jia you...!!

running a temp since mrng... when i woke up at 9.20am i realised one thing... i 4got to wake Aniq up!!! supposed 2 wake him at 6.50am but i tink i din hear da alarm at all... unusual... unless i'm very tired or i'm sick... but well... i'm sick temp is 38.57 degrees... oukay la... still can study... juz da runny nose makes me not able 2 concentrate well... well, lucky he's not angry... he was oukay bout it... tat sweet guy... awwwww...

Meetin sham later 2 go look for her shoe at bpp... dunno whether hav or not... tat gal still tinkin bout da jeans she saw at jennyfer... siao... if u want, go n buy kays... dun tink bout it 2 much... den we'll go ph... dunno 4 wat oso actually... haiz...

n plz... for liting's info... i still haven get anytin 4 valentine... so dun tink i still owe u a meal ba... wahahahahah... hmmmm... beta stop here... sham waitin 4 me already... supposed 2 meet her at 6... n i'm still at woodlands!!

1 more day to valentine's day...

2006-02-13T12:37:00.000-08:00

wats so big deal bout valentine's anyway... haiz... oukay... not tat i dun care but really... u get sick when u see signs which says.. "valentine's day sale"... Wateva..

yup... i'm still dateless for a fact... fine... not tat i realli care... been studyin 1029 since 10am over here at woodlands civic lib... juz went out 2 hav lunch at 12 n when i saw da com... i said.. y not...

life w/o ph seems 2 be quite boring... saturday was quite oukay la... went out wif sham n after tat went to celebrate khoo yu's b'dae at seoul garden... was fun... really miss rc peeps... muahahaha... sunday was a total opposite... after madrasah i like stay at home da whole day... u can say it's quite a record la... but i slept most of da tyme... so ya... i'm a little pig!!! hehez...

guess probably i wont quit ph afterall... tanks to Aniq n Sham... n Zairul.. yup... smsed him juz now.. oukay la... he's not angry n stuff n i tink we cleared da air regarding dat argument... hope things gona b fine...

5 days 2 v day..

2006-02-09T09:42:00.000-08:00

oukay... stupid com... dunno wat happen... wateva i blogged suddenly went missing sia... haiyo...

nvm... speakin of v day, looks like i wont be dateless anymore... someone asked me but i rejected... another one ask if i'm attach... i'm like... oukay... no comments... hmmm... dunno la... cant hope much tat da person i waitin 4 2 ask me out will actually ask... doubt he will even bother 2 talk 2 me again...

hmmm... beginnin 2 miss sum1 alot... dunno y... sejak tak keje kat ph... haiz... da la 2.. dier asyik no show... when i work, he no show... when i not wrkin, he cum... haiyo... but oukay la... sham say he got ask bout me... wahahahaha... so happie...

i'm not sure if miss hafizah is gonna read dis... but if she does... gal...!! i miss u so much sia... wahahaha... sure we'll go out some day ya... give me a shoutout ya... haha...

hmmm... i'm totally bored... wonder wat i'm gonna do during da study break... study la.. duh i knw... but boring sey... really miss ph already... haven even quit sey... da miss already.. haiyo...

wake me up... when dis whole thing ends....

gettin used 2 new life...

2006-02-08T11:24:00.000-08:00

Really tryin very hard 2 get use 2 not havin 2 work at ph... takin off for one whole week.. well tats supposed 2 serve as my notice la... but really reconsidering if i shud really quit... my parents are already oukay wif da fact tat i seem 2 cant put ph in priority... but seriously... i worked hard 4 da place does anyone ever notice?? haiz...

Goin out wif sham later... dunno go where oso... meetin her at SP, her sch... hope i dun bump into him... haiyo... not tat i dun wanna meet him or avoid him, but really... i'm not prepared yet... dunno wat 2 say la... haiyo... scared i see his face i laugh... wahahaha... not tat he's a clown but really... i'll be so dumbfounded n i'll juz laugh.. u knw da type of nervous laughter??

Yesterday after sch went far east.. bought my sis prezzie... belated la... not tat i 4get, its juz tat i haven get my pay... bought her a 'princess diary' comes wif gloves u knw... n sunblock... since she's takin swimmin lessons...

Exams totally comin up... haiz... really stressed up... during da study break i definitely not stayin at home.. nid peace n my own space!! moz prop will b in woodlands civic library moz of da tyme.. haiz...

Tomolo like no plans like tat... shiqi want 2 buy perfume 4 her fren... so ya.. goin bugis i tink... walao... at dis rate... i go out, spend money n not wrkin how sia?? really hard 2 find a job lei... dis is one of da reason y i reconsidering my options... haiz... depressed sia...

Goin checkup on friday.. dunno wat else they gonna take again?? blood test?? urine test?? dun care lor.. sputum test stool test oso i can give... wahahaha... really feel sick dis past few days... fever always come in da evening n disappear in da mrng... den cannot skip sch sia... haiyo... feel nauseous all da tyme.. out of breath even when i walk a short distance n climb a few steps... muz tell doctor naprosyn is not workin...

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V day comin... yup... no plans at all... so sad rite?? dun care lor... rubbish, it's juz any other day... juz tat ph will b selling da loveberry pizza... wateva its called... n on tat day u'll c alot of couples everywhere... haiz... beta lock myself in lib... save my eyes...!!!!

get over it...!!

2006-02-07T12:56:00.001-08:00

If i were 2 update on friday n sunday, it wud be totally different in tone... one wud b singing of wonderful memories of me wif za*rul (i knw its obvious, but i dun care) da other one will be spurting vulgarities bout him... well not tat i'm da type of vulgarities person, but reali... pissed i guess..

Friday was fun, seoul garden wif poly frens to celebrate cch b'dae was so fun... ate strawberry ice cream.,.. tat really made me remind me of him... sigh... even went esplanade 2 walk2 n bought candy floss sia... haiz... wat was i tinkin...

Saturday... i dunno y i even talked bout wat shah told me out loud... shud hav knwn beta rite?? haiz... i dun blame if u dun want 2 tell me but at least hint 2 me or sumtin?? is it tat difficult??!! mayb 2 u, well... haiz... I cant even trust my own colleagues den who can i trust?? managers?? bullsh*t..!!!

I mean y cant i go home after i work full shift n stuff... they shud be tankful tat i din complain to MOM bout dis... imagine 9 days straight of wrkin n 2 of tat days is full shift?? on sunday it was 11am-10pm n monday 9am-10pm.. n further more tat saturday i took an mc, its like practically common sense tat a sick person shud take a rest...

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N u, cant even take care of urself... y cant u make me 4get bout u n not make me worry bout u... when u show me da blood test i knw there was sometin wrong... y?? take care of urself plz.... dun overwork urself... here i am angry at u n still care bot ur health... i tink i'm crazy... 4 ur sake so tat u wont b in a difficult situation, i'm quittin... but u hav 2 promise me, take care of urself, dun until u faint n stuff...

y am i writin dis?? its not as if ur readin dis... sigh... I'm quitin, loing my job, my studies total crap, love lyfe sucks, hhealth deteorioratin... Wat more hav i got to lose?? my lyfe?? damn it....

New me....

2006-01-25T14:14:00.000-08:00

Hmmm.. Sch sucks today... Woke up late la... N there goes ppl's mouth blabbering... My darina... U now den cum ha?? Might as well no nid 2 cum...

First of all, do u even care of my presence over at sch?? TAt's practically da reason y i usually skip lectures n classes... 2ndly, it's my affairs whether i'm attending lessons or nt... I'm da one sitting 4 exams 4 myself, ur not gonna sit 4 me rite?? Haiz....

hmmm, psychology results out already but i dunno my results yet... technically lar... coz my admin no. is 053495A not 053494A... My lovely shiqi was really kind enuf 2 say tat mayb there was a typo error... den really i got A la... But was tinking... if easily they can mistaken 5 for a 4 den da results might not be accurate dun u tink?? Ppl can juz get an F but stated as a D coz it's side by side knw wat i'm sayin??

Goin to work later on... So tired n lazy sia... But doin FOH today so shudnt b a prob... But alone la... So closin confirm finish late 1... Haiz... Sum1 will definitely help me la... well tat wat he claims... juz make sure he stick to his words... :-p N today's my 1 year in PH!!!!!! Wahahaha...

Been missing sum ppl 4 a few days now.. Dunno y oso... Suddenly they juz disappear n gone juz like tat... HAiz... Hope 2 see them soon...

Well... end here...

New daryn...

2006-01-23T17:05:00.000-08:00

Been ages since i last blog...
Dun feel like bloggin, been busy with attachment & stuff... Haiz...

Hmmm, sch started today... Felt like haven go sch like very long like tat... Came in 2 class at 9.10... dunno consider late or not sia... Haiz... all i can say is, its great to be back...!! Yeah babe!!! Wahahaha....

Nuthin much 2 blog la... dunno wat to say oso... Haiyo... :-(

New daryna

2006-01-02T19:02:00.000-08:00

Halo... Been quite a while since i blog...

Wats been happenin?? Nothin much... Been depressed lately... Dun feel like bloggin 2...

Attachment startin tom... Haiz... I still haven buy bag sey...

Haiz...

Daryn tired...

2005-12-13T19:37:00.000-08:00

Stupid library com... Make me retype my whole blog... HAiz... Well... To summarized everytin tat i actuallie written... Nothin much... juz tat bio sucks...

Got a D+ for my bio... Sucky... well neva study... Wat do u expect... PAss gd already ma...

Hmmm, expanded my ridin experience... Gotta ride a PURPLE vespa on sunday... Wahahaha... So fun... Eh, actually vespa can go very fast 1 lei... Haiz... Speed like mad...

Oh ya... Tat stupid Kumar ask me 2 buy shoe juz bcoz i 4got 2 bring shoes!! haiz.. At least when i 4got yesterday, anis say nvm... Haiz...

Sch was oukay... juz tat school was very short lately... Gd la... At least dun feel bored.. Wont comment further.. Haiz...

Daryn tired...

2005-12-09T12:39:00.000-08:00

hmmm, now in clinical lab... Skippin bio tut n accompanyin ppl who is havin assessment esp shiqi... Hav 2 stay until 5pm... Haiz... nvm... Can play computer... wahahahha...

Workin today later at 6.. Supposed 2 start at 5 but told anis 2 change 2 6pm... Today manager is attached manager... Kumaran from cck... I doin cut 2day, haiz... Again rite?? So boring... Long tyme neva do service...

Bio prac sucks... Neva study much.. Tanks 2 my vomittin n diarrhoea n da unbearable stomach pain... Sigh... Confirm F one lor...

Next week will be da last week b4 sem break 4 2 weeks... Den attachment... HAiz... Again... So lazy... Cant wait 4 da break... I'll be damn happie, goin out shoppin n wakin up late... Nyahahaha...

Nothin much 2 blog liao...

BORED!!!!!!!

Daryn tired...

2005-12-08T19:12:00.000-08:00

Yup... My previous entry... Dedicated 2 my fren.. Hope things clears up soon... Really hope things wud turn out find... Haiz...

Things in sch today was oukay... Cannot comment 2 excessively... Haiz... Hmmm, manage 2 pass my clinical assessment... Hope can do well 4 da theory which i doubt so... Haiz... At da library now lookin 4 bio books... Wonder if there's any.. Haiz... Hmmm, i shall not comment any further... If not... Unbearable consequences...

Yesterday's outing wif sufi n fatin turn out 2 b like a couple thingy... Din knw fatin brought fir along but knew sufi brought wana.. n in da end hafriz came... Haiz... Like couple outing like tat except tat i wsan't attached 2 hafriz... Hmmm, he bought me a ring from SK jewelry.. $149!! 18 carat.. wg750... Gosh... But i'm returnin back la... Coz my mum said dat givin a gal a ring has its meaning n if i dun like him i shud return.. Yup.. i will do juz tat...

anyway went 2 eat at Marina square pizza hut.. It was so diff frm our greenridge.. Oukay.. 1 thing they had other cakes which gr dun hav... Got smoothies oso lei!!! haiz.. not 2 mention da ocean's platter n tempura prawn... Yum!!! Went esplanade after dat... Dat place really reminded me of my past wif sum1... Even tho its only 4 a few months tat we r close... He made quite an impression imuz say... I can stil remember tat tyme watched fireworks n airshow wif him... Sigh... Cannot doubt i miss him... 2 bad his not mine...

Oh well... signin off here... b4 i go mushy... Muahahaha...

Tired daryn...

2005-12-08T18:57:00.000-08:00

To my dearest fren liting...

So sorie if i wasnt specific in who i meant bout my previous entry... But all i can say its not u oukay... Dun get upset in dis kind of things... Try 2 be strong ya..
yup, there has been some misunderstandings between us... U, me, shiqi n hasrul... Mayb we shud talk bout it out in da open... But i dun knw how... Fear tat things might get worse... It's juz tat me n shiqi hav been very stress over dis thing 4 quite a while already... N we dun knw wat 2 do... Haiz...
Well... May god bless us all...
Darina

Daryn tired..

2005-12-07T18:05:00.000-08:00

Hmmm, bloggin 4 da 2nd tyme today.. After readin wat i said juz now.. It kinda makes me reflect... I din realie put specifically who i meant it 4... Actually, its 2 whom it may concern.. Who ever eat chocolate will taste da sweetness of it, no one else.. Tat goes 2 u, bloody monkey from religious class... Haiz... Met me pretend 2 be so friendly... Turn out juz 2 show off her boyfriend... Rubbish...

Haiz.. Goin marina square later... Hmmm... Hope 2 absorb stuff 4 my clinical assessment... So fuckin stress sia.. Haiz... Pimples cumin out... Hair droppin... Haiz... Oh well, beta catch my cab!!

Daryn tired...

2005-12-07T12:13:00.000-08:00

Hmmm, bloggin again.. In school rite now... Goin out wif sufi n fatin later!! Yay... Can't wait, n my pay is already in so its shoppin tyme.. Wahahaha...

School today wasn't as bad as i expected... Tot tat not havin shiqi ard would be disastrous but oukay la... Spent moz of da tyme wif huiping... Jiamin oso not ard.. Haiz... Anyway, juz a reminder 4 sum ppl, if u dun like me n dun want 2 talk 2 me, dun be a hypocrite n try 2 talk 2 me... Really hate dis type of ppl... Asshole... Wat a bitch sia.. I dun care if u read dis, dis is my blog n i say WATEVA i want... GEDDIT??

Haiz, juz got a msg from fatin tat she will be meetin me late.. So sad.. Moz prob i go home fiirst n sleep... So lazy sia, go out so late... beta study 4 clinical assessment n bio prac... Haiz...

Nothin much 2 blog about... Basically if i were 2 continue, it will bore ppl who read my blog... Haiz... I'm outta here!!

Daryn tired...

2005-12-05T14:22:00.000-08:00

oukay... din blog 4 da longest tyme... Haiyo... Been workin n workin sia.. Damn tired... Highlights 4 da past few days... Hmmm.... Let's c...

Oh ya... friday... Hmmm, din went 4 classes at all!!! wahahaha... go 2 sch setakat meet Shiqi n go bugis... Meet kelly(shiqi fren) n we had really lots of fun... Very funie... Eatin at hawker centre got dis old man, oukay la not so old, claiming 2 b a policeman... Wateva... Drinkin beer n smokin... Call urself a policeman?? Crap... Dun wan 2 talk bout him already la... Oh, bought 2 necklaces... Hehe... Pink n purple crystal... Wahahaha... Pink: 4 gd luck in love... Purple 4 gd luck in studies... Dunno true or not but worth givin it a shot la... Bought clothes oso... But had 2 leave early... Workin again.. Haiz...

Sunday... Went 2 da swiss dream circus which was early in da mrning... Crazy sia... Haiyo... Woke up @ 8 as its like opposite bugis there n hav 2 b seated by 9.30... Haiz... Oukay la, it was damn funnie lor... Amazing acts i muz say... N its been a long tyme since my family went out 2gether... Hmmm... Wish 2 go again... HAiz...

Yesterday was a tiring day... From school had 2 rush to NUH n den 2 work.. Had my injection again.. Made my hand very numb... Made my productivity go down only... Until i dropped 1 of da pizza... Haiz... Dun wan 2 go 4 it when i'm supposed 2 work next tyme... Oh ya, Dr saiful told my mum tat i might need sum psychiatrist help... Say can see tat i'm overly stressed wif sch, so "i think it's best for her health... Stress can make her health deteriorate..." My god... Wat does he tink?? I'm mad...?? Haiyo... I muz hav looked eccentric i guess.. It's true tat i've been stress up wif work n sch esp sch- tests, frens... Or shud i call fiend... Dunno la... Dun wish 2 comment further...

Today has been weird so far... It's like there's dis feeling of solitude ard me... Like ppl dun exist at all... Da only ppl i can call frens is my ph frens... Wahahaha.. cute rite?? Goin out wif dem again tom... Finally got wed n thurs off.. Well tats bcoz i'm supposed 2 study 4 my clinical assessment n biopractical... Wahahaha... nvm... Can study while wif dem oso... Hmm... but cannot stay up 2 late hor... Hehez..

Workin later... Can't wait 4 sch 2 end... Sch juz seem 2 suck everyday... N suckier(if there's such a word) every single day... Haiz... Oh well.... LIFE SUCKS!! wat do u expect...

*dun take life 2 seriously, no one gets out of it alive anyway...*

Daryn tired...

2005-12-01T12:12:00.000-08:00

Yup, its official.. It's 1 year since my secondary sch prom nite n 1 year my hair has gone from black 2 redish brown... Gosh it seems so fast... Felt so old... muahaha... To all my zhss peeps, we're growin up!! now tats wat i call a reminder...

Hmmm, school juz now was.... Surprisingly shockin... Din meant 2 tell hasrul bout it yet.. But gd tats its out in da open as i dun wish 2 keep it in me any longer... Haiz... Oh, i was late for sociology tut, 4 like 12 mins... We hav a 10 mins grace period so technically i was late 4 2 mins ONLY!! but in da end nvr went in 2 class.. coz practically tot tat i was late so attendance wont b marked anyway... haiz... Skipped psychology lecture.. Wahaha.. Oukay... first lecture tat i skipped dis week... Dunno bout tomolo...

Friendship between ppl in sch suddenly seem complicated... Ppl can still say tat they rarely talk 2 me nowadays.. Halo?? Hu's not talkin 2 who...?? At least i made some effort in msging SUM ppl but will dey reply?? NO!! Save ur breathe ppl... I dont give a shit... Son of a bitch n daughter of a whore... KNS!!

Workin later.. Ya.... AGAIN!! So tired... Juz now woke up late again... next week probably wont wake up frm sleep at all... Die beta... HAiz...

Knw sumtin?? Guys are like a bunch of sad cowards... Y dun they juz say their feelings out loud?? N plz dun act macho when ur not... Rubbish bunch of ppl... Sad... So sad...

Anyway... Studyin 4 test tats comin up.. Esp my assessment... 2 ppl fail liao... Hope i can pass... Lazy 2 take again sia.. Haiz...

Dreamy daryn...

2005-11-29T20:39:00.000-08:00

Was late 4 sch today... Woke up @ 7.21am n my lecture started @ 8!! Oukay la, reach sch at 8.12... Bluff Dr. Poh tat i lose my admin card... wahahaha... so evil of me... Anyway, was late coz i was damn tired, din even hear my alarm rang... Din slp well oso, been gettin dat recurring dream... Like as if i'm still workin n its bz like tat... Sounds quite dangerous, like i cant differentiate my reality n dream... Haiz...

Test later @ 1500-1630 n i start work @ 1800... Confirm late 1 la... Haiyo... Nvm, fly 2 work again... Doin aux n cut today... will b damn tiring... N my manager can ask a stupid qn yesterday... She asked... Daryna, u dis week 7 days straight do inside u will tired nt...?? I mean wat kind of qn is tat... Of course will tired wat, rite... I juz smiled n say oukay la, nt so bad... I mean, she was da 1 who planned me 2 work 7 days straight doin aux n cut... Wat can i do... I'm juz a FOH star... Haiz...

So far dis weeek haven been skippin lectures since last thurs... Oukay la, not bad... 4 4 days liao... But dunno will skip or not later... Some1 say wan 2 skip but when i ask never reply like tat... Oukay lor... Fine.. Since i not studyin much might as well juz go 4 lecture lor... See video n some slides.. Shud b oukay ba...

Dunno how cum 2day like outcasted with my guy fren... Haiz... Dun care... Muz b objective 2 achieve my self actualization... Da highest level on da maslow's hierachy... Wahahaha... C how it turns out da next day...

Fever subsided already so not talkin crap @ da moment... Ya, muz b tinkin... Like finally daryna is actuallie talkin sense... Muahahaha... Oh ya, today 1 of my sayang b'dae... Hahaz!! Happie b'dae yun long...!!! C, i so gd, wish u happie b'dae twice lei!!

Oukay, my blog's kinda long today... I mean, dis is 2 fill in my boredom... Wahahaha... Miss goin shoppin wif frens or self-window shoppin... Workx3.... So sianz... Oukay la, at least got income ma...

Oh well, dunno wat 2 write already... mind shuttin dwn... Tataz 4 now... My god, my tataz remind me of some1.... Haiz... Sometings r not meant 2 b...

Dreamy daryn...

2005-11-28T19:35:00.001-08:00

ooppss.. i din do it on purpose... Wahaha... So sorie hadn't been bloggin 4 da past few days.. Nothin special happen, juz bz wif sch n work... Highlight was probably on saturday night when i went out @ 10pm plus 2 go 2 bedok 2 watch a 11.50pm show... Pontianak harum sundal malam 2 or in english Banshee of the tuber rose scent 2... Scary eehh... Wahaha... oukay la... first tyme i actually told my parents where i'm goin in da middle of da nite... tink dey cant be bothered oso... Bz playin monopoly.... Sigh...

I wont be bloggin 4 some tyme soon... tats probably bcoz of da bz n hectic schedule i'm havin... I'll b schooling n workin everyday since last sunday all da way till dis sat... Haiz... Test are all comin up... N i've yet 2 study 4 them.. Sigh... Can foresee tat i wud skip lectures, n when i say skip, i'm not being lazy, juz damn tired... I mean, imagine u stand 4 5-8 hours cuttin pizzas after pizzas, doing aux items... Running here n there... I mean, its part tyme... Not suppose 2 tire u out rite... I need da money la...

Once i tot i wud neva hav da heart 2 quit pizza hut but after much tot... I tot of juz lettin go, leavin ph... Nothin there 4 me 2 hang on 2... Sigh... Tot of takin up sponsorship n quit ph... but i've no gurantor.. HAiz... tats life..

Test comin up + daryna bz wrkin + no tyme 2 study n rest = doom.... AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...

Dreamy daryn...

2005-11-28T19:35:00.000-08:00

Dreamy daryn...

2005-11-24T13:19:00.000-08:00

Oukayx2... Its been quite a while since i blog... Been quite off lately, not feeling well... Ppl who dun believe, up 2 u... I knw myself beta, oukay?? So get lost....!!!!

Hmmm, been going out wif pizza hut peeps... Watchin harry potter n da goblet of fire n goin Jalan raye... Quite tiring n exams are fast coming... Most probably taking off from work... Really need 2 concerntrate on sch... Haiz...

Juz got my posting 4 semester 2... 5 weeks in total!! Gonna die... Haiz... Not going back 2 my ward... Ward 41... Oukay la... Not tat emotionally bonded wif da staff dwn there.. I tink my dis ward is an air-conditioned ward... If i not wrong la... Dunno lei... Cant remember... Haiyo...

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Things happenin @ Ph which i sumhow can't decipher @ da moment... Haiz... Will write when i hav da mood... Rite now, feel so lost, lonely... I have no direction in life!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGHHHHHH...... I'm tired.... tired of....... life...

Physically, mentally, emotionally, psychologically & financially.......................................................... DRAINED!!!!

Dreamy daryn...

2005-11-20T11:55:00.000-08:00

Wah... Two whole days neva blog... Haiz... so many things 2 write... hmmm, lets start from saturday... Oukay, my saturday might not be interesting frm my dear fren Shiqi... But oukay la... Wahahaha...

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Saturday was a stupid day... Supposed 2 go out wif my sec sch fren n i din go... I mean, u cant blame me when ppl who i not close wif neva go rite?? N Ms Hamizah, u don hav da right 2 scold me vulgarities juz bcoz i neva go oukays??!! Who r u 2 do dat?? A fren?? Fren don treat fren dat way... Bitch!! But da day was fun... Played monopoly wif my two lovely sis... It's been a long tyme since i did sumtin wif dem... Haiz... Wish i was younger... *sob*sob*
But da day was not bad as i did go visiting wif my family... Hang out wif my cuzzin n everytin... Den talk bout her life, mine... N her idol Khairil from anugerah... Walao, can't stop gushing bout how tat guy look sia... Haiyo... My Fauzi Laily is still da best... Muahahaha...

Sunday was oukay la... not bad.. Went to religious class n i got 3rd in class for da final year exam... I was like?? My standard is droppin... Used 2 get first n everytin... Haiyo!! Tyme 4 a wake up call... Wake upx2!!!
After tat, was so tired n slept... wake up go visiting again... Rushed 2 work... Work was damn tiring as i did cut n tat freakin Adzan had 2 go home @ 10, meaning I hav 2 do HIS make closin apart from my own cut closin... I first tyme do lei... Hope i did it oukay n my hours not deducted.. Lol... Hmmmm, but a lot of pple help me la... Wahahaha... Da power of Libra women... Anyway, yesterday me n Anis(my manager) was bz wif da stupid christmas decorations... Haiz... Hav 2 draw some stuff... Still got ICAs n tests comin... Die sia... Muz learn 2 manage tyme... Yup!!!
Today, da day has been pretty smooth... Will b skippin lectures n going off @1... Instead of 5... Muahaha... Lazy daryn... Oh well... Beta stop now, later still nid 2 rehearse 4 tomolo's ICA... Haiz... Jia you!!!

Dreamy daryn...

2005-11-17T20:01:00.000-08:00

Dreamy daryn...

2005-11-17T12:17:00.000-08:00

Yesterday din blog... So sad.. Hahaz... Actuallie rite, if i blog yesterday, it wud hav been a long entry... Y?? Well, our socio tut lecturer was dis lady named Wee ee dzu... She was like so... how do i put dis... Weird... I mean, u dun go ard startin ur every sentence, (well almost every sentence) wif "ppl" or "students"... Den kept sayin tat we muz not b put off by her style of teachin... N wats up wif, "I work best in da mrng..." Crap!!!

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Yesterday oso our grp was like in tension mode... Other sub grps other dan sub grp 1 wanted 2 change their sub grp... But it turn out as if, its about da other malay gals against us sub grp 1... Until a few ppl cried... Haiz.. Oukay, I was called bull-shittin n "merepek".. Fine... I accept tat... Wateva.. I hav my own freedom of speech n i'm allowed 2 used it... It's my mouth... GEDDIT???

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Yup, supposed 2 go out wif da other malay gals in class... But i din go.. I mean, don u feel awkward, after havin a "tiff" n den go out wif dem, as if nothin has happen?? C'mon la, i'm not some hypocrite lor... Plz... Tryin 2 b nice n askin me 2 go n stuff... Forget it... Ass-holes...!!

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Haiz... Oukay, i'm so lucky tat today's bio tut is not done by THERESA.. If not, she will repeat n repeat bout where da air tat we breathe in pass through n den out... Wateva!! Bio sucks... After tat, is clinical lab.. Practice again.. So sian... Wish can skip but cannot la... Wahahaha... Wrkin 2day, so basically will be damn tired... Haiz... I'll stop here... n sleep... Muahahaha...

Dreamy daryn...

2005-11-15T15:58:00.000-08:00

Blogging!! muahahaha... Oukay, lets c... I hav tons of things 2 say but so little time...

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Yesterday was very fun!! Like finally he talked 2 me normally!!! Muahahaha... Oukay la, not much, especially @ Zaitun's hse... I went hme like quite late, my mum was nagging as usual... I dun care... Quite happie la.. Oh ya, riding a scrambler was totally different frm riding KR or SUPER 4.. Since da seat was quite high n everytin... Haiyo, lucky Khai neva go very fast lor.. If not, I wud hav probably fall... Lol... Lucky he din mind much bout me keep banging his helmet n tat i sat on da plastic part instead of da seat... Oukay, at least i learn my lesson after tat... But found out tat I wud b seatin very close 2 him.. Asked Sufi bout it, n yup... She told me its like tat one... Oukay, so not tat embarrassing... Muahaha... Wasso tired till i din went 4 bio lect... Hahaz... Its boring anyway...

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I juz hope tat Hafriz doesn't found out tat I ride wif Khai, if not I'm dead meat...But on da 2nd tot, who's he 2 scold me rite?? Not my bf wat... I'm single n everytin... Haha... I love being single... And love me if u dare... Lol...

Dreamy daryn...

2005-11-14T12:38:00.000-08:00

I'm pissed!! PERIOD!! Oukay, da stupid com in sch juz restarted by itself n i haven publish my blog yet...!!! Irritatin thing!! Anyway, wat wud u do if sum1 ur close wif in ur past doesn't talk 2 u anymore n treat u like a non existant human being?? Juz bcoz he went back 2 his ex??

U knw who u r... If u happen 2 find dis blog unintentionally or by word of mouth, i'm fine wif it... Juz wanna let u knw tat i dun like 2 b invisible n i wish u wud at least talk 2 me normally... Haiz...

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And while u fade away frm me like a brilliant shooting star, I can't help but wonder bout wat cud hav been.... Haiz....

Dreamy daryn...

2005-11-14T11:48:00.000-08:00

4 those of u who have been askin me bout where i update my blog, its either in sch or @ da national library... N yup, my tittle 4 every blog will always be dreamy daryn... Dunno y lei... I like ma... Muahahaha...

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I almost had 2 go 2 work today... Lucky got ppl replace me, therefore... I CAN GO MY MANAGER'S OPEN HSE!!! Yay... Hehez... But i still dunno wat 2 wear leiz... so confused... aaaarrrrggggghhh... Muahahaha... Haiz... Anyway, today will b da first 4 a very long tyme tat i look 4ward 2 sumtin... Yup, its been a loooooooonnnnggggg tyme... Tat's how BORING my life is... Skool, work, skool, work... HAiz... Oh, give me a break...!!

Dreamy daryn...

2005-11-13T11:35:00.000-08:00

yup... my day din turn out 4 da better... Haiz... He still din talk 2 me.... Talk oso only bout work... Wateva... But actuallie yesterday wasn't so bad la... Wahahaha... Will be riding sum1's scrambler tomolo 4 my restaurant manager's open hse... But hav 2 wait until 6pm lei... :-s

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Dreamy daryn...

2005-11-13T01:53:00.000-08:00

Havin a family sucks.... Well not as in marriage n stuff but ur own family... U knw parents, u n ur siblings...?? Yup... tat kinda family... Oukay, i'm not sure if most ppl believe in dis but 4 me, every sun is supposed 2 b family day... A day where u bond wif each other go out, talk n stuff... Further more its hari raya, 4 heaven's sake's... Wats wrong wif my family.... Haiz... Family?? Wat family...?? I dun hav 1....

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Well, going 2 work soon... Juz hopin da day will turn out 4 da betta.... But i'm not expecting much tho... I mean half of da day has been like dat rite??
U knw sumtin, i feel like goin shoppin... Wahahahahahaha... Hey ppl, if u wanna go shoppin, tag me ya... Wahahahahaha... Can release stress... Wateva it is, b4 i'm late 4 work, i'll sign off...

Dreamy daryn...

2005-11-12T17:54:00.000-08:00

Haha... Tryin my damn best 2 like blog everydae... Dunno can or not but will definitely try... Wahahahahaha....

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anyway, damn tired, juz got back frm work... Sumore last nite went out wif ph frens... Very fun!!!! Watched just like heaven @ ps... Hey, 2 u guys, we'll go out again ya!!! Hmmmm, work today was.... normal... I mean wat do u expect workin as a service crew in ph?? Esp, greenridge??? So slack sia!!! Haiz, but today rite, i quite sad lei.. Sumone like dun want 2 talk 2 me like tat... I mean, dont u even care 2 say halo?? So wat if u hav a gal now?? I dun care kays... Still frens wat, rite?? Wats da past is past.. U cant replay it, even tho u badly wish it wud.... Haiz.......

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Well, wateva da case is, i wont let it bother me... Darin muz b strong rite... Hahaz... Oh well, let me stop my crap here....

Dreamy daryn...

2005-11-10T19:50:00.000-08:00

Haha.. Hey i got a new blog... Well, cum 2 tink of it, its actualie i hav a blog... Coz i neva hav 1 b4... Oukay, u can say i'm a outdated person(now den create blog), but i dun hav a com, geddit?? So wif da persuation n help frm my dearest fren, i created a blog of my own... Wahahahahahaha.... Let me get dis out first ya, wateva i say in dis blog is 2 my liking n whoever is free 2 read dis... But if u dun like it, wat 4 read it??? Dun b an idiot lah...
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Anyway, 4 ur info, i'm quite new 2 dis kinda bloggin stuff, so will nid help 2 improve on my blog etcx3... So plz oukay, if there's any suggestion, tell me la oukay...